Reality leaves a lot to the imagination

Today has been a day of lists. Sometimes I’m able to organise myself, sometimes I need to write a to-do list… and some days I need multiple ones. Today has definitely been one of the latter. Between going on holiday with Jade Rachel earlier in the month and the long weekend we’ve just had for Easter I’ve been feeling more than a little discombobulated.

I am now feeling a litle accomplished so I’m taking a moment to celebrate a couple of small victories. Go me!

I still need to chase a couple of content writers. Deadline is Thursday and I’ve heard nothing from them. Feeling a little concerned.

I would love to go to the cinema. I want to see Batman Vs Superman. As does Jade Rachel so I’m thinking date night (if we can get a babysitter). Jade Rachel and Caden Bryce also want to see Zootopia.
I’m really hoping superheroes win here!

I need to do laundry. I hate doing laundry. It’s probably my least favourite chore. I want to be able to pay for someone to do it for me. That would be a wonderful luxury.

Five things in my handbag

An interesting meme I’ve seen on blogs over the last couple of days – Jade Rachel‘s included, so I’m joining in ad posting about the 5 Things in My Purse at All Times

Wet wipes/hand sanitiser One of the perils of travelling by public transport, you never know when you’re going to touch something unpleasant.

Pocket rocket vibrator Oh, don’t look at me like that. Sometimes a woman gets frustrated during the course of her day and needs to get herself off in the bathroom!

Spare pair of glasses I’m as blind as a bat without my glasses, and I don’t get on with wearing contact lenses all day. Spare glasses are essential as a ‘just in case’

Hair accessories Ive always got a couple of hair grips and a band or two with me. London can get very humid at times and avoiding bad hair day frizz is always handy

Tablet computer For working on the go

That’s not to say those are the only things in my purse, but those are definitely among my essentials.

Pace Oddity

Sometimes it’s amazing how fast time goes by. It’s like life has started rushing by like it’s trying to break a land-speed record and I’m scared it’s going to pass me by and I’m going to miss it.

How is it possible that we’re coming up to Jade Rachel & I’s first wedding anniversary? I still remember the first moment I saw her and that was six years ago now. SIX YEARS.
Note to self: what are you going to do to celebrate this?

How is it possible that Regan is 18 this year. 18, driving, (hopefully) leaving home and going to university. And Caden Bryce is 5. I was there when he was born, this tiny little wrinkled baby and he’s now this exuberant 5 year old who loves cars and monkeys and lego and counting.

I feel like I blinked and half a decade has gone by. I remember how long the six-week school holidays felt as a child, stretching out into this foreverness of freedom. And now it’s almost March – weren’t we just celebrating Christmas?

Can we please slow time down a little so I don’t miss anything?

Pat On The Back

I’m relatively certain that a lot of people who read this blog also read my step-daughter Regan‘s blog and will have already heard the news but I feel the need to write a proud mother post. Because Regan, my sweet baby girl, has been accepted into her first choice university. Providing she gets the exam results she’s predicted – and she’s predicted higher than she needs – she will be leaving us in the Autumn, and moving almost as far away from us as is possible and still actually be on the mainland UK. From London to Aberdeen. Hope she’s got her thermals and electric blanket packed!

I am a little sad at that, at the thought of her leaving the nest but at the same time, I am so so SO proud of what she’s achieved.

The last couple of years haven’t been easy for her. Her mum died, Jade Rachel had a breakdown and Regan ended up living with her father. Not that living with her dad was at all a bad situation just completely different to everything she’d experienced at that point. It took Jade Rachel a couple of years to pull herself back together, get back to London, regain custody of Regan. And then Regan had to cope with moving a couple of times while they found the right house.

And then there was me. It cannot have been easy for her to have me come into her life, to have her other mum falling in love with someone else. Neither Jade Rachel or I will ever replace Regan’s mum Shaine, and nor would we want to. We make sure she’s still part of Regan’s life, as much as we can. Regan also had to cope with not being an only child anymore and having this baby, then toddler, around.

She didn’t only cope, she excelled and she blossomed. I have had such a pleasure watching her grow from a smart tween to this intense young woman. Have I mentioned I’m really fucking proud of her?

Karma Chameleon

Today’s Daily Prompt asks Reincarnation: do you believe in it?

The simple, easy, answer is NO.
I believe we are sent to a temporary heaven or hell, to await the final resurrection, the final judgment, and then the finality of their eternal destination

Allow me to explain:

The Bible tells us that after death, good souls/spirits are taken to heaven, because their sins are forgiven by having received Christ as Savior (John 3:16, 18, 36). For believers, death is to be “away from the body and at home with the Lord” (2 Corinthians 5:6-8; Philippians 1:23). However, passages such as 1 Corinthians 15:50-54 and 1 Thessalonians 4:13-17 describe believers being resurrected and given glorified bodies. I believe our souls/spirits go to be with Christ immediately after death and our physical body remains in the grave “sleeping.” At the resurrection of believers, the physical body is resurrected, glorified, and then reunited with the soul/spirit. This reunited and glorified body-soul-spirit will be the possession of believers for eternity in the new heavens and new earth (Revelation 21-22).

For those who are not worth to be reunited with Christ, death means everlasting punishment. However, similar to the destiny of believers, I believe they are also sent temporary holding place, to await their final judgment, and eternal destiny. Luke 16:22-23 describes a rich man being tormented immediately after death. Revelation 20:11-15 describes all the unbelieving dead being resurrected, judged at the great white throne, and then being cast into the lake of fire. However, even though they are not instantly sent to the lake of fire, their immediate fate after death is not a pleasant one. The rich man cried out, “I am in agony in this fire” (Luke 16:24).

Don’t Tell Anyone…

I am terrible at keeping secrets. It’s probably my worst habit. I’ve always been like it, and assumed, when I was younger, that it’s something I’d learn to do as I got older. I’m now in my 40s and now, I still cannot keep a secret.

It’s probably related to how much I talk. I’m really good at talking! Brody says it’s my best talent and that I was born kissing the Blarney Stone. Cheeky fucker!
When we were younger, I would tell him everything – and he, me. I think it just grew from there, that I have some biological imperative to share wi
th everything with the people I’m closest to.

Despite talking a lot, I am really really bad at lying. And keeping a straight face is pretty much impossible. Blushing gives me away so easily, and fidgeting with whatever is near to me. Sometimes that Freud was scarily right.

“No mortal can keep a secret. If his lips are silent, he chatters with his finger-tips; betrayal oozes out of him at every pore”

‘Dont tell anyone’ are the most horrifying words anyone can say to me. If Jade Rachel is planning a surprise for the kids, she can’t tell me because I get so excited about it I want to just blurt it out. I am getting better at thinking before I speak but really, I’m no good at keeping my lips sealed.

My life is very much an open book to my loved ones. They know pretty much everything about me. I have nothing to hide. And you know what? I like to think that being truthful, open and honest are very positive personality traits to have – my friends certainly think so and really, that’s all I need.

A Day in the Life: February 2016

I think I have an ‘About Me’ page that I’m pretty pleased with. Thank you, all, for your tips and advice. It was very much appreciated.
Please do let me know what you think – all constructive criticism welcomed 🙂

Now, on with the post:
ADITL-Feb2016A Day in the Life is a monthly link up ran by Georgie. On one day each month you are invited to summarise your day, using the prompts provided if you want.

What did you wear today?
It was a work day, so a pair of red wide-leg trousers, matching blazer and a black wrap blouser. Now that I’m home, I’m in a khaki tuni and black skinny jeans.

What made you laugh?
Caden Bryce, just being himself. He wanders up to me, sits down and looks at me very seriously before asking me if I wanted to know what he was thinking about. I told him yes. Then he looked all sad and told me he’d forgotten what he was going to say.

TIL (Today I Learned)
HTML. Or, at least, I started learning it. Using a wordpress template is all wel and good but I figured it would be nice to be able to do more than just bolding and italics. I’ve started a free online course at https://www.codecademy.com/

The weather
Right now it is 7C and a little cloudy, but dry. It’s been like this most of today.

Four People I Encountered Today

Jade Rachel
Well of course my wife is going to be on the list. She woke me up this morning with a lovely mug of steaming hot sweet black coffee. Could life get any better? ♥

Caden Bryce
Our sweet little boy. He’s been sick this last week, a really bad cold and he’s been very clingy. He hasn’t left me alone since I got home from work. This is not a complaint!

Aaron
One of the IT guys at work. I was having issues with connecting to our internal network and he came and fixed it. Sweet kid, and always has sweets/chocolate/cookies to share with everyone! 🙂

Emma
Emma is a young homeless girl who I always see at the tube station. I would say she’s about mid-twenties and has a border collie. I buy her breakfast and some dog food every day – always make sure she has blankets/gloves/hat when it’s cold, an umbrella/coat when it’s rainign.